WHY?

The things
We went through together
The happiness we shared
The sadness we overcame
The tears of
Joy,sadness and pain
That we cried
As we held each other
The promises we made
Those countless hours
We spent together
And after all this time
All I wanted to ask is
Why?
Why you left?

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SORRY

As the knife
Plunged deeper
My vision blurred
Darkness consumed me
I saw your face
Saw your tears
And with my last breath
All i could
whisper was
"I'm sorry
For everything"

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A SONG

Silent whispers
Silent tunes
Being played
A song
Of love
Take my hand
Dance with me
Hold me tightly
On this night
Made just for
You and me

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CRAB

I feel like that I am a crab now hehe..."eh kakunyehge haru kohnaanee ehkakunyeh ge varun neve"...
Translation: "Each crab should dig its own hole according to his own size"(hmm...I am not that much great at translating stuff)...well anyways....I'm trying to work stuff out ...heh....according to my own strength....hmm...sleepy.....YAWN

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WHAT YOU NEVER SAW

A smile
you saw
But what
You never saw
Was those tears
That welled up
In my eyes
Just before you
Turned and
Walked away

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FARAWAY

I know it hurts
To be this
Far away
I know its lonely
To be this
Far away
But baby
This is only for
The time being
I would be there
Soon...very soon
To be with you
To hold you
And whisper
In your ears
How much
I love you
So wipe your tears
And smile for me
Cox faraway
I may be
But my heart's
Always with you

Dedicated to my Loving girlfriend, love you babes more than anything else in this world..


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WALKING AWAY

A moment in time
Of you and me
Our first meeting
How our eyes met
How we smiled
How we expressed
Those feelings
Within our hearts
But now
Sometime back
We have forgotten
Those times
So we leave
On our separate ways
Two hearts
Filled with regrets

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TALES,MY TALES FOR A HORSE

Fairy tales....hmm...Ever felt like that you are in someones else fairytale....like maybe you are the evil sorcerer or the evil king....and seeing the ...ahem....waiting for the knight in shining armor or the prince charming come and whisk away your princess....u watch helpless as the person u love been taken away from you.....damn i gotta go and my own fairy tale...heh....but what if my fairy tale is long gone and much better what if my fairy tale never existed....oh boy....that would feel great.....i mean hah hah.....i would be barging in other fairy tales and ruin it all up.....like some guy would come up to me and say "hey hey fellow you are in the wrong fairy tale, go and find your own"....*confused*......but i guess life aint about fairy tales....its not a story with endings like those in fairy tales or neither is it a plot from a movie....i guess we make our own stories.....and i think i am being my true paranoid self here..sshhhhh....did ya hear that?....i tell ya somebody is out to get me...oh boy....no wonder i am getting so hysterical hah hah....


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SEPARATIONS

Separated,gone
Gone for now
It widens,
Day by day
The pain
It hurts
This wound
Of separation
From whom?
From...you

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WORTHLESS

I'm hating my life so much that i wish i could just close my eyes....FOREVER. Nobody understands how I feel. Seems like nobody cares about how I feel. Am i just that worthless?. Guess I am..nobody, nobody really cares, do they?. So can I just die in peace in this cold place of my own world. Let me die in peace...just let me die in peace.....

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Image taken from deviantart

Just Thoughts

I keep wondering why?....people always seem to say not to love anyone too much...I got confused..what am i supposed to do, if i cant love the one I'm with as much as I want to what's the meaning of loving them. Then they keep saying that don't show that you love them. Now i got more confused. If I don't show that my love whats the point. I just wanna give all the love i had and just show it.....cox i think when you truly love someone you have to......so I guess I'd rather love the one I'm with fully or not love at all....

HELLO

It's wonderful that just a hello, a simple hello could make me feel so much happier......

INCAPABLE

Here i am
Time and again
Wishing
Just wishing
That i cud
Keep everyone
Happy
Yet i find
Myself
Incapable

Credits: Image taken from Deviantart

Down right stupid Or?

As I stand in front of the mirror I keep wondering. Am I the real person or is that the real person. I keep wondering for sometime and I just give up…like who cares..heh wait a minute…*knocks on the mirror* “hello anyone there?”,” Hey why are you knocking?” No answer.” Stupid reflection…..” (Wondering if I am the stupid one)

DREAMER

Dreams of loving you
Dreams of holding you
Dreams of us being together
Dreams of a forever
Dreams of a family
Dreams of happiness
Only dreams
Which never seems to come true
Am I to be?
Just a fool with some stupid dreams

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BACK IN LOVE

This feeling

So strong

You made me feel

Oh so much

More happier

I am more

Than I was before

I see you in my dreams

I hold you always

I love your eyes

I see a forever in them

I love your smile

The way it makes me feel

How you give me hope

The way you

Always tell me

That we can be

Just you and me

Together, that we can

Take on the world

That you believe in

This love of ours

ETERNAL LOVE

A FOREVER

I cant seem to
Find the words
Cox words
Seems not to be
Enough to show you
That I love you
Very much
I want to
Hold you
Steal all your pains,
And
Your fears away,
To hold your
Hand through
The sad times
Smile and laugh through
The good times
Together
Cox baby
This love
Is true
Its pure
And for always
Its just like
As in
Forever

This is dedicated to my Girlfriend,love you babe.....
Credits Image:from here

A PROMISE

For you

I would do anything

Anything……

That’s humanely possible

I can’t promise that I can give

This world

but you can

have mine

Nor can I swim

The seven seas

But if you want

I would jump in

Nor can I pluck out

A star from the sky

But I would be there

with you

to gaze at them

I can’t take away

Your pain

But I would hold your hand

Throughout

And wipe your tears

And give you

My undying

Love

Caring

But I may not be

With you always

I wish I could

And it doesn’t mean

That you’re not in my thoughts

Foremost you are

On my mind always

Your name

Engraved in my heart

Forever it would be

Come what may

It would be so

This I promise

Cox for me

You are everything

This is a dedication to someone special(guys please don't ask who?)

Poem by me
Image by me

TWO SIDES OF A COIN

“Every one is a moon, and has a dark side which he never shows to anybody”

TWO SIDES OF A COIN

When everything turns upside down

The flame burns up

Tainting darkness

drowning,consuming everything

enveloping the world

My very own world

shattering the pillars

of my very own dreams

hopes,everything

Till I'm trapped

A prisoner

In my own world

Looking through

A mirror

At my own Wasted life

As he rises

And takes over

The reins from me

Mocks me

with that

wicked smile of his

I just lay there

Beaten,broken

All the while

he was wrecking

havoc and Chaos

All around

And for once

I felt

Euphoria

Credits:

Image:here

Quote:here

FROM DEEP WITHIN.....

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SOOTHING THY SOUL

For once, just once,

Feel exactly what I feel,

Believe what I believe,

Perceive as I perceive,

Look, experience, examine,

And for once;

Just once, understand.

'The soul, according to many religious and philosophical traditions, is the self-aware essence unique to a particular living being. In these traditions the soul is thought to incorporate the inner essence of each living being, and to be the true basis for sapience. It is believed in many cultures and religions that the soul is the unification of one's sense of identity. Souls are usually (but not always as explained below) considered to be immortal and to exist before their incarnation in flesh.

The concept of the soul has strong links with notions of an afterlife, but opinions may vary wildly, even within a given religion, as to what may happen to the soul after the death of the body. Many within these religions and philosophies see the soul as immaterial, while others consider it to possibly have a material component, and some have even tried to establish the mass (or weight) of the soul.

Skeptics of the soul cite phenomena such as brain lesions (as in the case of Broca's aphasia) and Alzheimer's disease as evidence that personality is material, and furthermore, exists in discrete components, contrary to the philosophy of an immortal, unified soul.

Maybe next time I would write about the ummm........well the continuation. Till then...Ciao

Image: Made in Adobe Photoshop by ME

Credits:

Info on soul gathered from here

Poem(weellllll....actually it was a quote) from here

PLACE OF SOLITUDE

PLACE OF SOLITUDE

Closing my eyes
I feel the cool wind
Caressing my face
Soothing my soul
The silence broken
By the sound of
Waves coming
Onto the
Moonlit beach
Slowly I move
As if in a trance
Reaching my destination
I sit down
And gaze off
Into the horizon
Lost in thought
I stay there
Till I open my eyes
To reality....

Image: made in Adobe Photoshop.

THIS WAY OR THAT WAY

Okay so guys I’m back. Got something to talk about or something like that. Well it’s about this called fair (not skin tone). Something like fair and unfair.

Many people think that their life is unfair, they keep saying it, think about it all the time 24/7. When we look into the reason why they arrived at such a conclusion we see (now do we?) it just so happens that either

(1) something didn’t turn out how they expected it to be, or
(2) Something bad happened.

Maybe we want to blame someone or something for all the things that’s happening? Well what can we say (human nature??) Like the times when we didn’t get what we wanted. The truth is we may not always get what we want -everything happens for a reason- (I think I read a story with that title) maybe we are better off without getting what we want. And we end up saying something like:

“LIFE IS SO UNFAIR”. (Mwahahhaha)

Now is it really unfair? I mean after all we are given choices in everything we do, our choices are what leads us to happy or unhappy situations in the first place (we tend to forget that). So always love the choice you make, don’t regret it and move on, Cox no good will come from wasting your time regretting stuff. Doesn’t mean it’s easy to forget things (I mean the choices we make) which made a hard impact in our life’s,(okay so there are times where you don’t know what to choose-like buying that thing or this? is it much better or that?-those are the times to ask for help from someone) so we are solely responsible for how things turn out. So what if you had made a wrong choice, learn from your mistakes and move on. (Right) and I saw from somewhere (okay so I can’t remember each and every place I read or heard something from!!) something like….ummm

“When one door closes another opens”

Sometimes we worry too much about the closed door that we forget about the newly opened door until that door closes.
(Okay so that may not be exactly how it really was. sorry heh heh).And lastly…

How many times have we stopped for a moment and thought about how our life is? How good our life was and still is? You know the good things in life (Praise God for it.) I mean think about it- there are people who are living in worse situations than us .I for one believe that we won’t face any problems that we can’t solve. (Getting help from friends and family is a good idea)

So maybe for once we could stop saying life is so unfair and love the choices we made along the way till where we are today, and learn from the bad choices we made.

WHY WASTE TIME REGRETTING WHEN YOU COULD BE HAPPY.
That’s all folks….PHeewwwww…

Image: made in photoshop (yeah right its crappy,but i kinda like it,thanx anyways)

PERFECT!!!!! WHATEVER THAT IS!!

Here I am again and again with more of my ravings (duhh….why am I doing this again), duh well this time I wanna tell you about something...(Well duh I know that…thanx-shut up will ya…I am trying to write something here..) sorry about that…now where was I…ummm…yeah right ..Something had been bothering me for quite some time and I just can’t make up my mind (umm…whatever that’s supposed to mean…) well it’s about this thing called PERFECT (hmmm…..)Here’s what I think…and before that the definition of

Perfect: accurate, flawless.

Well so nobody is perfect in the sense that we are all with flaws. Okay some people may have no physical flaws (depends on the way how see it), they may have flaws elsewhere like for in their personalities. Others who have a perfect personality (once again depends on how you see it) may have physical flaws. My point is everyone has flaws (Damn right) but some of us don’t think about it that way (some of us really think they are perfect-the truth is they are just proving that they are not) even I have flaws, I admit it (though I’m really trying to change-not trying to be perfect though-just wanna be someone who could be accepted by people).

The way I see it there’s only one way that people would see you as perfect that is when they(people) accept the fact that you have these flaws and accept them (your flaws). Friends and family and others around you accept you even though you have these flaws, because they love the person they see and they see someone good, respectable, caring and not into bad stuff. And when you are in love with someone you would see them as perfect (you can’t see all those flaws-sometimes you end up defending that person from others who point out their flaws, and you hate those who do point them out, no wonder they say that love is blind.) all that changes when its someone you hate, you just can’t see any good in the person Cox you wouldn’t just let your mind think anything good about that person, even though that person is indeed really good in some ways( when you break up with your lover you would begin to see the flaws that your friends pointed out). Something perfect for one person may not be perfect to another Cox it’s really just the way how you look at it. So all in all just wanna say that guys and gals and everyone don’t say you’re perfect (maybe PERFECT with some flaws..heh heh..)

Well this is what I think…it may differ from what others think…Cox I know I am not PERFECT.(so what I say may not be perfect lol….) and before I go just wanna point out a very good quote which is there on your right corner (top right corner on my blog on top of about me sidebar)

Photography: by me

Image: by me

Arrrrrgghhhh!!

From deep within
Comes this urge
To let it all out
Let you know
All the things which
Have been buried deep within
An anguished soul
For its been
Tortured and taunted
From time and time again
Beaten and broken
Till nothingness
But no matter
How much tears
Has been wept
And sacrifice
Been made
It’s all going to
Be in vain
Cox all these
Have been
Falling on
Deaf ears

Image-(Made by me using Adobe photo shop CS2)
PS.It may be not good but I'm content with it,Thanx

WHY I HAVENT POSTED

Writer's block is a phenomenon involving temporary loss of ability to continue writing, usually due to lack of inspiration or creativity(Hmmm....). Writer's block can be closely related to depression(true true) and anxiety, two disorders that reflect environmentally-caused or spontaneous changes in the brain's frontal lobe. This is in contrast to hypergraphia(whatever that is), more closely linked to mania, in which the changes occur primarily in the temporal lobe. These processes, and their implications for treatment, are described in neurologist Alice Flaherty's book The Midnight Disease. However, another interpretation of writer's block, sometimes confused with scant output, is given in the book Silences, by Tillie Olsen, who argues that historically many women and working-class writers have been unable to devote themselves to, or concentrate on, their writing because their social and economic circumstances prevent them from doing so. It is widely thought that writer's block is part of a natural ebb and flow in the creative process. Author Justina Headley explains in keynote speeches that for her it comes from losing touch with the characters about whom she is writing; and that by discovering who they are again, the block disintegrates.

Various strategies for overcoming writer's block

Some authorities[citation needed] have recommended the following to those suffering from writer's block: * Setting a time and write whatever comes to mind, without stopping, for that time.
* Using writers' exercises such as "chunking". They use many websites that contain numerous creative writing exercises. Writers read an exercise, and do it.
* Taking a break, meditating, or doing relaxation exercises to relieve any pressure on oneself and on the writing. * Doing something out of the ordinary. If writer's block comes from a lack of new ideas, attempts to spark creativity by going somewhere new or doing something different can be useful.
* Returning to the writing after a lapse of a day or two. * Write a basic plot outline of the story, if having problems keeping the story on the rails.
* Write or type out a complete short story by one's favorite author. By the end of ten to twenty pages, the mind is properly engaged to again be creative.
* Brainstorming at the beginning of the writing can help the writer by relating every point to another.
* Reading, watching movies or plays, or similar activities that might bring inspiration. * If suffering from writer's block, write about an experience of your own or of a person you know. It's not the best strategy, but it will work if all else fails.

I may not be a famous writer but i sure am having this writer's block or maybe I'm TOO BUSY.( maybe someday you guys would see a book written by me..the title may sound something like- How to become a famous writer...lol)..anyways I'll be back with some stuff...Thats all folks!!!!

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Information about writers block-http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Writer's_block
Writers block Image-http://www.lombardi.ws/literaryAspirations/writing/writersblock.JPG

THIS AND THAT

Well this time I’m here to take a few things off my mind (hmm…I do have lots on my mind) Anyways it was concerning how some of us think. Well actually I had a friend who thought the same way. I still hope that person would change. So let me begin...

Sometimes we face a lot of problems, like the times where we can’t be what our parents expect of us, and no matter how much we try its not enough. Sometimes our parents fail to believe us, they would rather believe someone else (makes ya wanna shout out loud). So then comes the part where you turn to friends, some who give you real good advice and some who don’t (those friends who are bad influences-pls advice them) and sometimes parents, friends (practically everyone you know) label some of us, which makes us wanna be that way. I mean when someone says you are a good for nothing, bad person (No matter how much good you have done) you want to just give up on being good and just be bad. I too sometimes wanted to be that way (give into my dark side), but couldn’t get around to it, coz deep in my heart I thought about it (I had one hell of an inner turmoil,chaos). The more I thought about it, the more I didn’t wanna change (I have this strict thing about how changing myself is like cheating myself- trying to become what you are not). Here was my conclusion:

Deep inside you know that you aren’t a bad person, you have a choice for every thing you do. Its not about what others think of you that you should worry about but more like the voice that say that you are doing the right thing (self satisfaction), and becoming a bad person just because they (family members, friends and neighbors) label you as bad is like STUPID, REALLY REALLY STUPID, Cox you are just proving them right, instead just go on being good, caring and kind( yeah just let them think whatever they want), coz we know that God is always watching us and if you are in the right path then you got nothing to worry about). Right friends!!... And yeah sometimes our parents yell at us, but that doesn’t mean that they are angry with us (okay for the moment they may be), it’s just shows that they love you very much (it’s a responsibility of a parent to guide their children in the right path). They don’t want you to stray from the path (the good one), I mean if they don’t care about us why keep bothering us (they could just throw us out, but they don’t) its coz they really loves us and care about us, take for instance how your friends treat you, you share with them your worries and your friends offer advice (I mean the good ones) Cox they care about you, instead you go to someone who hates you and they would just leave you be. So next time your parents yell at you just hug them and say sorry for making them worry and promise them that it wont happen again (and don’t forget about that promise-never make empty promises-), and don’t go and do things that would bring a bad name to you or your parents. (Be thankful that they are there for you; appreciate their company so that you won’t regret it later for not expressing how much you love them when they were there, coz they won’t always be there, think how lucky some of us are that we have our parents). Well that’s all….Hmmmm….

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Image"never give up"-http://tkis.com/humor/never-give-up-l.jpg

Sloppy Poems

BROKEN

Lost and lonely I wander
With my head held down
Deep in thought
Through the dark alleys of my life
Not a soul in sight so empty,so betrayed
Then there came a light
With it the whole place lit up
I looked up and I saw her
Saw her smile
As our eyes met
I felt a wave pass through me And as I held my gaze
Seems like her eyes were saying
"Trust me!Everythings gonna be alright"
Then she beckoned me to come
I started walking
But no matter how much i walked
I couldn't reach her
Till my legs gave away from under me
I fell to the ground
Looked up and saw that
She was still smiling
I began to crawl
Finally I reached her
Held out my hand to touch her
But from nowhere came a flame
Scorched my hand
I looked up towards her
Saw that she wasnt alone Someone was holding her
I felt my heart break into a thousand pieces
Tears fell,had no control over them
My vision blurred,but still
I could see that
She was still smiling
And then she was gone
Taking everything
Leaving me to the darkness,again
Lost,lonely and This time....Broken too

LOSING MYSELF TO DARKNESS

Hey guys and gals and everyone (hope I haven’t missed anyone. lol)

I’M BACK…..okay okay I admit I post very few, but it’s just that I don’t have time (well actually that’s not it though.), well anyways I just wanna tell someone something or the other. Well the other day someone asked me what color do I like (actually that person asked me why I was so obsessed with black or darkness as I prefer to call it?).

IT’S SO DARK IN HERE

So then I began to think and here I am. (Some people say that black is not a color, so for those people I wanna say that both of us are right Cox it just depends on which side of the perception/physics fence you're on!

In terms of Perception, Black like Greys and White is an achromatic color: a color without hue and saturation (or” strength").

If the term is intended to be Physical (physical and psychophysical concepts are often confused) and Black refers to a total absence of visible radiation (light) then, if there is no physical stimulus, there can be no physiological response: no response-> no perception-> no color.)

Okay so where was I again hmmm….yeah right as I was saying I am obsessed with dark, Cox it’s mysterious it goes well with other colors (ahem I’m no expert but I do use adobe Photoshop which I like- I'll show you guys some of the works I've been doing with it). So I Suuurrrfffffeedddd (WHOA!) the web searching for the meaning behind black (darkness), and here is what I found.

Black is associated with power, elegance, formality, death, evil, and mystery.

Black is a mysterious color associated with fear and the unknown (black holes). It usually has a negative connotation (blacklist, black humor, 'black death'). Black denotes strength and authority; it is considered to be a very formal, elegant, and prestigious color (black tie, black Mercedes). In heraldry, black is the symbol of grief.

Black gives the feeling of perspective and depth, but a black background diminishes readability. A black suit or dress can make you look thinner. When designing for a gallery of art or photography, you can use a black or gray background to make the other colors stand out. Black contrasts well with bright colors. Combined with red or orange – other very powerful colors – black gives a very aggressive color scheme.

Okay thats it guys, so thanks for viewing this (PHEW!). By the way I also like other colors too but BLACK and BLUE are my favorites. (Although I don’t want to be that way I mean beaten that way.heh heh)

Coming soon! I cant think of a title yet but its gonna be a poem or about Adobe Photo shop. Bye all.

Those of you who want to know the meaning of your favourite colors just click here (although there are meanings of only 8 colors. sorry if your favorite color isn't there)

WELL....I CANT THINK OF A TITLE

A fantasy (okay so i like final fantasy-so what) is where anything is possible, where everything is going how you want it to. Now my question is why do people want it? I just can’t understand it. I mean if everything is perfect then what can you want more and if there are no worries or problems to face where the fun in that is. If I don’t know what sadness is then how can I know what happiness is? Heh heh now I am getting really confused? (Which happens very often) so why can’t people just be happy with what they have, and stop daydreaming about stuff? (Well that includes me) and in which time they daydream they could have done something that actually could have helped them or at least take their minds off things like WORRIES. (Now that still won’t take it away though, its just relieving yourself of it for the moment.) But that doesn’t mean that you don’t have to daydream, I just mean that don’t take all that seriously, you know the fantasy stuff. Things are the way they should be, everything happens for a reason blah blah blah. Okay so I may be boring but so what, I can write whatever I want. (Do you think that I’m being a LITTLE selfish. Dig that pun…hmmmmmm) okay so anyways I just wish that somebody would seriously think about what I said (hey nobody visits my blog-so what) especially me!!! Okay point noted..hmmmm…ummm…(there I go again talking to myself, maybe I should go and see a shrink sometime, point noted..Lol) okay where was I??

-Hey hey idiot you are at office?

-Where?

-Heh heh

-Come on stop making fun of me

-Heh heh make me

-Why you!

Sorry guys I think I should seriously go.. heh heh…tc..bye till next time

CURTAIN OPEN, LIGHTS ON....ETC

Well, there’s always a first for everyone, so here I am with my first (well not first actually, I had tried before but didn’t know what to write) blog (funny MS word doesn’t recognize the word blog.) ANYWAYS let me try to go on. Now where was I? Oh! Yeah right as I was saying this is a first for me so let me begin with saying WOW. At last I can write whatever I want wherever I want, nah forget what I said. Okay I am running low on what to write, so what! There’s still yet more to come, that is if I can find something that interests me (Ahem…I am interested in many things) so i would probably have many things to write about. But now the big question... Would I have the time? See ya….